Schizophrenic or Underdemiciated?So, I’m feeling like total crap at the moment. I’m developing such low self-esteem, that I’m being pushed to a wall full of makeover choices. But, I don’t want to! I mean… I feel the need to look beautiful, but I just want to be satisfied and happy with how I am.
It’s definitely driving me nuts; more so when I get to see beautiful girls out there in the magazines and television. There’s like an automatic response in my head telling me, “You look so ugly compared to her.”, or something along those lines. It feels like I'm so underdemiciated (for any of you who aren't familiar with the word, please do not search it up in the dictionary, for it was created by the adorable kids of BEDTIME STORIES, which means not appreciated) Argh! I love uniqueness, and I love myself because I am different, but there are times when I just…*groans in frustration*
Now, do you see why I titled this journal that way? @_@ Am I schizophrenic? Wahaha, okay, getting way over my head. Seriously. Am I? Or am I just going through a really really tough time in my teenage years?
BOTTOMLINE: I'm low on self-esteem.
I’m posting it here to vent out my frustrations. Sorry if I insulted or offended anyone with this, but that was never my purpose.
Anyway, I’ll try to control this persona inside me. :\ In the meantime, I’ll focus on my drawings and yeah~~ studies. College life sure is hectic. Haha.
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Doujins:
SasuSaku:
Vestige
Anata wo Aishiteru
Xie Xie Ai
ItaSaku:
Sich Revanchieren
Frei Faszinosum
Unhappy
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愛love 力量strength 美麗beauty 櫻sakura 火影忍者naruto 幸福happiness 痛苦
Of course that you aren't schizophrenic. Almost all have thought some time as you, I include. That state will be passed you as quick as realize that:
1º Not all the beautiful people that smile in television is as happy as seems.Your smile, more or less beautiful, will be better than theirs while be true.
2º Don't you think that the most different people is better valued that the people that is so similar to the remainder? I think so. Once I read "If people laughs at you because you are different, laugh you of them because are all equals". Do not you think that has something of reason?
Well, that is all. I hope that the next time that entered here can read that you surpassed all that. Trust me, suffer that, it's not worth it. Only reading what you wrote I can see that you are beautiful, more than what you think.
I hope that you are ok.
See you soon.
PS: Sorry if I bother you something that said.
PS2: I love your drawings. The plot of the the doujins is good.
PS3: Sorry (again) if I didn't write well. I'm Spaniard and my english is a little rare xD
Know that, I have been doing well. I try talking to the mirror sometimes to boost my self-esteem *laughs*, but it does work. Although, yeah, we can't help but point out the flaws of our images, I try outwitting myself on the value of beauty by focusing on the value of my heart.
So, I thank you very much for what you've said. It does give me much confidence.
And thank you very much for supporting me with my artworks, I'm glad you're enjoying them.
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Doujins:
SasuSaku: Xie Xie Ai
ItaSaku: Frei Faszinosum
I wanted to ask permission to translate some of your doujinshis to Spanish.
In my fansub traslate doujinshis of all couples of Naruto, this is my web
[link]
And of course, we put in the credits that the work is you and a direct link to your gallery.
What do you think?
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Doujins:
SasuSaku: Xie Xie Ai
ItaSaku: Frei Faszinosum
Thanks you very much!! ^^
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